I knew that our move to Sweden would be tough on many levels, but I hadn't predicted this cruel homesickness. I don't even dare to think about Sunnvale because it hurts so much not to be there anymore. Obviously it's much harder to move away from something you love and give up that life, for something you know very little about or don't have such positive memories of. In our case, we are moving to something new-old. Having the energy to start over here is a challenge. And in that situation, homesickness comes knocking. But I don't dare open the door, not yet.
Now the challenge is to maintain what has been good and not geographically bound and live the equivalent life here in this new-old environment, while also having the energy to make everything work practically. I am thinking of housing, school, work, everyday life, activities, friends, social life, etc.
Once I've landed in all this new-old, I'll open the door, if homesickness is still knocking. But right now I'm covering my ears, crying when no one is looking, trying to accept that I'm here and now.
Thought of the day:
Are you homesick? How do you deal with these feelings?
This article is part of The 50 day challenge, where I challenge myself to write an article a day for 50 days! The articles can be about anything, short or long, but I can't miss a single day!
With love, Johanna.
